Dearest deep depression, sweetest suicide
How I don’t feel your heaviness and pull today. I am lighter, I am freer without you. I have so much more life, potential and future without you there. I couldn’t have ever imagined a day like this; a day when you weren’t there. I thought I was you and you were me, I thought we were forever entwined.
I’m not so foolish to think that you are gone. You lurk somewhere unseen until another day. I know enough now to cope through the times you possess me. The pool of unending swamp and mud that you require me to swim through no longer drowns me.
I will no longer cling to these days of freedom or resist and flight when you hold me down screaming.
Yours always and affectionately